I asked for a dream on the new moon eclipse last night for clarity around my business and finances. The dream I received was crystal clear and super vivid: I am in my current bedroom and have just gotten out of bed when my dad (looking like he did when I was little….wearing a white t-shirt and khakis) walks in and lovingly tells me to go back to bed and take a nap.
How can that be? This is supposed to be the time of year when I feel all charged up and ready to take the world by storm. Unleash all my creative potential as new products and services. Write my next book. Deliver my new, powerful keynote. And instead, I am feeling called to exquisite self-care, self- love and self-compassion…..to go back to bed and take a nap!
Yes, I’ve read the books and attended the retreats. Heck, I’ve even taught movement classes at Self-Renewal Retreats for Renee Trudeau, the ultimate self-love/self-care guru herself! So my ego was pretty bruised by the realization that I clearly have not made self-love a sustainable and integral part of my life.
It’s not news to me that self-love must come before any outward expression of love is possible. I grew up with the words from Jesus, “Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” And it’s not news to me that I’m in need of self-care after 3 years of being a working, single parent while my husband has had to be away. But the part of me that is self-critical and self-judgmental is struggling with having the self-compassion to believe I am really worthy of receiving the love and care I need.
One thing I know for sure. The dream struck a powerful chord in me. And I also know that my work must be authentic and in alignment. So, I am declaring 2011 as my year of Self-Love.
How about you? What is your theme for 2011?