My issues were stuck in my tissues. This is not a normal blog topic, but it’s something I feel called to share with you because I know I’m not the only one who has dealt with this and I’m hoping my story will be helpful.
Last year my marriage ended a few months shy of its 20th anniversary. It was a marriage that I cherished and nourished and tried my best to make work; but ultimately I couldn’t keep it going.
Despite all the tools in my tool belt (prayer, meditation, PranaShakti dance, yoga, journaling, etc) and all the help I received from therapists, body workers, energy workers, spiritual guides and friends I couldn’t seem to let go of the past and pull myself out of grief, depression, fear and anger.
I knew I needed to let go and move on, but it just wasn’t happening.
Then I received bad lab results. The stress had taken its toll on my organs, glands and immune system. This news added a new emotion: shame. After all, I’d spent 27 years studying and teaching mind/body techniques for healing. I, of all people, knew that every cell in my body was eavesdropping on my thoughts. So why was I still swimming in an ocean of unhealthy thoughts?
Unfortunately, knowing that my stressful emotions were the cause of my physical symptoms wasn’t enough to heal me. So I did what I always do when I can’t find an answer with my intellect: I prayed for guidance to come in my dreams. And the very night I said that earnest prayer I received clear guidance to go to India for panchakarma (the Ayurvedic protocol that eliminates toxins and strengthens immunity.) While it made perfect sense to do panchakarma, I thought there was no way I could take the time to travel all the way to India!
I felt like one of my clients when they simply can’t see the logic in the guidance I’m offering – only to discover after following the guidance that it was exactly what they needed. So I ignored all the ‘logical’ reasons why going to India for 3 weeks was not feasible (I’m a single, working mom with a son who’s about to go to college!) and booked the trip anyway.
My whole nervous system instantly relaxed when I arrived at the Ayurvedic hospital high in the mountains of Tamil Nadu, surrounded by tea plantations and eucalyptus trees. And that was the first step in my healing….relaxing and breathing pure, mountain air.
Next week I’ll share the exact protocols I followed – and how you can do some of them at home. Stay tuned ☺
It’s not India….but it’s wonderful self-care you can access for free from wherever you live. My friend and colleague Ashley Burnett interviewed me along with some of my favorite women (including Terri Cole, Rochelle Scheick and Sianna Sherman) for an online event called the “Uninhibited Women Leadership Conference.” Just click on the image below to register: